There have been a lot of ups and downs lately in my life. I am busy doing a lot of things but at the same time, I am very lost. Sometimes I will suddenly feel that I dunno what I am doing. My life has recently jumped out of its daily routine.
In the past, I will work on the weekdays, go home after work for dinner or sometimes I will meet friends outside for dinner. Then on the weekends, Saturday is my free day where I can meet friends for shopping or sometimes I go SL. Then Sunday is very standard, COI practice from 3pm till 7pm then dinner with the COI ppl.
Every week it has been like this. Very routined and somehow I got used to that sort of routine life. Suddenly I have no idea what I am doing. My life is not routine anymore. Sometimes I do this, sometimes I do that. Sometimes I have very last minute things popping up. Now I can't tell my friends exactly which day I am free because I don't know. Things will just pop up. I felt myself being swallowed into this tornado of things.. assorted things.
I dunno, maybe I am just not used to it. Maybe I don't have a sense of security in this non-routine life.